In my three years here, art has steadily meant more and more
to me.
I’ve always seen art as something I wanted to do that was not attainable—the more I wanted to
spend my time painting, the guiltier I would feel for using up time that I
“should” have spent working on assignments that were actually going to be due
one day. This, of course, assumes that said art was on my own and not for its
own class. Taking a step even further, if I ever even entertained the idea of
pursuing art full time, the ingrained expectations of a secure tech job would
always eclipse that.
I certainly don’t know exactly what I want out of life, but I
know one thing: it isn’t to work in the tech industry—software engineering or
summat like that. Still, that’s what I’ve been going for. The only consolation
has been that I know I’ll keep art with me—not as the main career, but as
something that I’ll always enjoy.
It’s like that too, while at Duke. My main focus, against my
better wishes, is probably always going to be my computer science major. And
yet, I’ve tried hard to always insert something I enjoy into every semester: a
painting class, a creative writing class (twice!), a Polish class, and this
time—a drawing class. To me, being an ”artist” has always been a means to keep
me sane. As classes have gotten harder and schedules busier, I’ve increasingly
counted on being able to fall back on art. Now, more than ever, I appreciate
the value of having hobbies.
I wouldn’t say right away that there’s a community that comes
along with “being an artist at Duke.” Fine arts, specifically. Back in freshman
year, a group of painters (including myself) had a long discussion concerning
Duke’s focus on the performing arts over the fine arts—we even tried to
petition Duke to expand the painting program. I think it's an ongoing effort. Sure, there are a ton of DUU
Visarts programming opportunities this semester, more than last, but those often attract a
certain demographic, and a ton of hobby / independent artists miss out. To no
fault of DUU—many artists simply prefer working alone. Still, I’m definitely glad that these art events are happening and
bringing different artists on campus together. The visual arts program might still not be
as large as we’d like, but at least the community is forming :)
As a busy, tired, stressed Duke student, art has never meant
so much more.
Ta for now! x
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